urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fancyseeingyou The happy phantom has no right to bitch Keri 2006-02-12T03:43:44Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fancyseeingyou:1017 2006-02-12T03:43:44Z 2006-02-12T03:43:44Z <pre style="FONT: 12px arial">I hung out with Max today. We stopped to see if Abby was home, but she was out with Jake (theyre going to get married, i bet you.) Im waiting for a phone<br>call from her as we speak because were going out to see Max tonight before he leaves tomorrow to return to college. I wish they hadnt of broken up, hes<br>so upset about it. They have soooooooo much history, so many years under their belt, but maybe that was the real reason she broke up with him.<br>Also, he drinks and smokes weed, and she doesnt anymore. But, I mean, they have so much attraction towards each other, so it cant really be<br>because she wasnt into him. Or maybe it is. I dont rweally want to write too much on this in my journal. </pre><pre style="FONT: 12px arial">Morick stopped by today and we talked for awhile..well..he talked, I cried. Its so hard without him. He spent a year of those 3 living with me because <br>of his family. I'm so used to him being part of my daily life, I never spent a day without him. Not because I'm dependent on him, but just because Im<br>in love with the guy. He asked what I wanted. We all know what I said...</pre><pre style="FONT: 12px arial">I said I need time away from him..I said I dont want to date again because I know it wouldnt feel the same.</pre><pre style="FONT: 12px arial">I've run out of complicated theories So now I'm taking back my words and I'm preparing for the breakdown Your t-shirt's lost its smell of you and the bathroom's still a mess remind me why we decided this was for the best Because I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love.. I know the distance is a factor but I stretch as often as I can and I goes to reach your hands anyday now please dont blame me for trying to fix this one last time I have a hard time as it is Because I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love Dont act like you dont know me Its still me I never changed I'll be here when you come back and I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love..</pre> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fancyseeingyou:731 2006-02-05T21:38:45Z 2006-02-05T21:39:26Z JACK JOHNSON!!!!!! Alright, so I stopped feeling sorry for myself. I did call in sick for work, but Morick is working today and I don't think I want him thinking that I'm this upset over it all. I went for a walk around with Abby and then I came home to clean the house. Now I've spent the last hour or so talking to Keith over the phone. I had no idea he was able to show compassion. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fancyseeingyou:441 2006-02-04T22:14:58Z 2006-02-04T22:54:49Z This is the new journal. I wanted a new one because the other I've had for about 3 years and I wanted a change. Also, Morick and I broke up after 3 years of being together. I spend the night with Abby in the woods and we talked until morning. Her and I had an awful start last year because of Brando and Keith and that whole situation (as we all know) but these past months we've been close. She's sooooo, I don't know. She's the kind of person who you never know what to think of, but you just know you love it when she's around. I used to think she was wicked fucking annoying because she was really insecure and stressed out all the time. I don't know what happened over the summer, but it must have been a way good enlightenment because she's grown into a lovely young woman soooo fucking fast! We spent all night talking about everything and anything. She makes me really feel good. AND SHE'S MAH GURLFRIEND =) Last night I told Morick about the party thing and he just up and dumped me. I can't stop crying and I feel like I was just pushed off a cliff and told to fly but I have no wings. I started highschool with Morick in my life and now in my Junior year, I'm alone. I have no experiance with anyone else because I never dated or even loved anyone else. I look at other guys and I just think about how much I want him back because I know I'll never be able to love anyone else. My first and only love lasted 3 years. I'm so scared without you.